{"id":1329,"date":"2006-05-11T15:00:55","date_gmt":"2006-05-11T15:00:55","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.freedonia.fr\/blogWP\/?p=1329"},"modified":"2006-05-11T15:00:55","modified_gmt":"2006-05-11T15:00:55","slug":"rivoli","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.freedonia.fr\/blogWP\/?p=1329","title":{"rendered":"Rivoli"},"content":{"rendered":"

A la piscine des Halles j’ai crois\u00e9 Speedo. Ou peut-\u00eatre \u00e9tait-ce une ombre ressemblante et, logiquement, avec un maillot de bain rouge. D’ailleurs, pour des raisons obscures mais sans conteste d\u00e9codables par la psychanalyse (le propre de la charlatanerie est de tout pouvoir expliquer), je suis repass\u00e9 plein de fois, r\u00e9cemment, pr\u00e8s de la rue Jean-Jacques Rousseau. En allant de jour lire jardin du Caroussel. En retournant nuitamment y draguer, dans les giboul\u00e9es et le glauque. <\/p>\n

C’est difficile de parler du voyage avec David. L\u00e0-bas, et \u00e0 l’\u00e9poque, le temps \u00e9tait plomb\u00e9, lourd, bas, hostile, comme dans un tableau de Ruysdael — et aujourd’hui le ciel est vide, clair, diffus, translucide, incontestable et printanier comme chez Turner. Je ne peux plus savoir ce que ressentais, je me souviens de ce qui s’est dit.
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\nIn les Halles’ pool, I bumped into Speedo. Or it was a look-alike shadow who, quite logically, was wearing red swimming trunks. Otherwise, and for obscure reasons, easily decypherable to psycho-analysis (the peculiarity of charlatanry is, it can explain anything), I’ve walked by rue Jean-Jacques Rousseau quite a many times recently. Going by day to read in the Carroussel’s gardens. Coming back by night to cruise, through showers and dreariness. <\/p>\n

It’s hard to talk about the trip with David. There, and then, the weather was leaden, heavy, low, hostile, just like a Ruysdael painting — and today the sky is empty, clear, defuse, translucent, indisputable and spring-like, as in Turner. I can’t know what I felt, I remember what was said. <\/p>\n

\"\u00abL'un\"Mon\"\"And<\/p>\n

Comme je n’ai plus d’ordi chez moi pour le moment, je dors, je lis, je range. C’est tr\u00e8s chic et un peu almodovarien: allong\u00e9 sur le canap\u00e9 noir, avec seulement la lampe super-DDR noire pour m’\u00e9clairer, \u00e0 feuilleter le \u00abNew Yorker\u00bb. Enfin, mamy almodovarienne genre Marisa Paredes, vu qu’\u00e0 11 heures je suis au lit. <\/p>\n

Des fois, SophCo me fait le reproche de me sentir sup\u00e9rieur (\u00e0 elle, aux autres) parce que je ne fume pas, ne prends pas de drogues, et que je ne suis jamais ivre mort. Je ne peux pas nier. Peut-\u00eatre que l’histoire familiale charg\u00e9e (de l’entrepreneur en faux-champagne mort en buvant son fond de commerce au typographe alcoolique), et mon effroi pour (mais ma croyance dans) les atavismes zoliens, m’ont fait prendre mes distances. Certainement je per\u00e7ois l’alcool comme un biais efficace, mais une fragilit\u00e9 et une facilit\u00e9, pour faire face \u00e0 la mort, \u00e0 l’\u00e9chec, \u00e0 la solitude. La contrepartie pour moi se paye dans la semi-addiction \u00e0 une sexualit\u00e9 consommatoire qui ne masque qu’avec difficult\u00e9 la perception de mes neuf ann\u00e9es de p\u00e9d\u00e9itude affich\u00e9e comme un rat\u00e9 sur le terrain sentimental.
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\nAs I don’t have a computer at home for now, I sleep, I read, I tidy up. It’s mighty chic and somewhat Almodovarian: lying on the black sofa, with just the super-GDR black lamp to be lit, flicking through the \u00ab\u00a0New Yorker\u00a0\u00bb. Well, Almodovarian grandma \u00e0 la<\/i> Marisa Paredes, since I’m in bed at 11pm. <\/p>\n

Sometimes, SophCo reproaches me to feel superior (to her, to others) because I don’t smoke nor take drugs nor get blind drunk. I can’t deny. Maybe the burden of familial history (the mock-champagne entrepreneur who died drinking his business, the alcoholic typographer) and my fright of (but belief in) Zola-esque atavisms, have made me distance myself. Certainly do I perceive alcohol as an efficient expedient, as well as a fragility and a choice for the easy way, to face death, failure, and loneliness. The counterpart for me is to be paid into semi-addiction to consumption-sex, that conceals but with difficulty the perception of my nine years into open fagness as a sentimental misfire. <\/p>\n

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A1: \u00abL’un d’eux m’a dit: \u00ab\u00a0nous n’avons pas une langue mais une maladie de gorge\u00a0\u00bb.\u00bb (mon futur chef) \/ \u00ab\u00a0One of them said to me: ‘We don’t have a tongue, we have a throat disease.'\u00a0\u00bb (my future boss)
\nA2: Mon prof de ruritanien a quelques anecdotes et il y tient beaucoup. \/ My Ruritanian teacher has a few anecdotes and he’s keen on them.
\nA3: \u00ab\u00a0And what do we do next?\u00a0\u00bb<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

A la piscine des Halles j’ai crois\u00e9 Speedo. Ou peut-\u00eatre \u00e9tait-ce une ombre ressemblante et, logiquement, avec un maillot de bain rouge. D’ailleurs, pour des raisons obscures mais sans conteste d\u00e9codables par la psychanalyse (le propre de la charlatanerie est de tout pouvoir expliquer), je suis repass\u00e9 plein de fois, r\u00e9cemment, pr\u00e8s de la rue […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1329","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-b2"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.freedonia.fr\/blogWP\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1329","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.freedonia.fr\/blogWP\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.freedonia.fr\/blogWP\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.freedonia.fr\/blogWP\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.freedonia.fr\/blogWP\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1329"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.freedonia.fr\/blogWP\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1329\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.freedonia.fr\/blogWP\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1329"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.freedonia.fr\/blogWP\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1329"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.freedonia.fr\/blogWP\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1329"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}